depth of winter

"In the depth of winter, I finally realized

that within me lay an invincible summer"

- Albert Camus

There is something so beautiful about the winter to me. So barren yet you can see life just waiting to burst out of the branches and up from the ground. The cold makes me feel alive and aware. It makes me really think about things. Everything is cold and intense, lonely even. Waiting for the warmth of the sun and the smell of the flowers and fresh grass. Waiting for a new beginning.

The past few days I have stayed in, drank tea, watched movies and read some interesting blogs. I made lists and organized my ideas. I am also working on two important posts that will be posted within the next day or two. I just wanted to give you a quick update for now. So, I think I may have developed a new obsession with Marie Antoinette. I have always found her interesting, but I had never seen the movie until today. I haven't even finished it and I am already in love with it. So I am putting together a post dedicated to her. I adore Sofia Coppola. her style is so unique and refreshing. I also watched the virgin suicides. People will always ask me "why do you like that depressing movie about girls that kill themselves?" -__- They don't understand. They don't appreciate the beauty of it all.  The beauty of tragic girls. Sometimes I wonder why I am friends with some of the people I am. I feel like if i didn't know them for so long, I wouldn't even be interested. I know that sounds harsh but it's the truth. No one I know blogs, or has tumblr or likes to take pictures, or is into art and films like I am. Everyone is so dull. Why can't I meet people that are like the ones I meet online? Every person I find the least bit interesting lives a million miles away or doesn't even know I exist.  I yearn for people I barely know. I want to meet people with more depth. People with open minds and broader imaginations. People that see beauty in things that others are blind too. I need some more substance in my life. I think that's why I am always on the internet reading about other people and their lives, So I feel like I am a part of something they are experiencing. Aren't we all?

Marie Antoinette post coming shortly
xoxo



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